so, this weekend i made a trip with two friends to ohio. it was probably the most random thing that has ever happened in my life to date. we were eating over dinner, and i jokingly said we should go to abby's sometime, to which evan replied "lets go now"....to which abby replied "okay" so we did just that. while driving through the night was fun, i was very tired. the sights were not so great at night, but the drive back through the west virginian mountains was ridiculous. we enjoyed just hanging out with family...it was a lot of fun.
its funny how we left lynchburg which at the time was soaking wet, to go to ohio which was covered in snow, and ice; which did not stop until saturday around 9 pm. so we were in ohio at abbys house, in about 2 feet of snow. it was a blast.
its funny how certain things remind you of stuff...or make you think of specific things...or certain people. like for example last night we watched a movie, where people just unexpectedly just died, as is most cases in death. but anyhow it reminded me of Jesse my good friend from highschool. and the tradgedy of that is...i have no idea where jesse is right now...i wish i did...its not really that i am doubting jesse's salvation. its just i cant recall what i heard last on the subject, which terrifies me on so many levels. cause he was just a 15 yr old. ya know?
it haunted me all night on saturday. i thought about his face...his laugh...his smile...his jokes. and i thought about his soul, his legacy, his friends...and how much we miss him...his family and how awful it must be to relive something most people who knew him only relive once every year or so..if that, but they relive it everyday....playing it again in their heads, wondering if something could have been done differently. i mean i ate breakfast with him that morning...i wonder could i have done something?
anyway...i hate to end this on that kind of note...so i wont.
i did not get to talk to veloria this weekend...other than a few shady text messages...that probably didnt make sense to her. i feel awful. i miss her. and it is wierd that we didnt speak this weekend...i didnt hear her voice...somehow i believe the weekend would have been much better had i.
anyway...here's to the coming week...and mid-terms, and ohio with some friends...south carolina/florida with jeff...and a long week of the open road.
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Young Leadership
13 years ago
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Aww- did you go see my Abby or a different one? That's fun:D Sorry I missed seeing ya when I came in, but maybe another time. So apparently it isn't just your mom who reads your blog (like you said on another post) haha
Questions about death can be very hard to deal with. Someone I knew in middle school committed suicide this past fall. I wished I could have gone back and shared the Gospel with him. I wondered if anyone ever did. Those questions can definitely torment. I did realize that they can also be used to lead us to cling to our Savior and spur us on to do His work more. That's really the only peace in the midst of that kind of sadness, when we just don't understand things.
Blessings:D
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